Second best .

Honestly, I've always felt like second best .. and always will be. I'm never good enough. Trust me, I've tried to change that. And I would do anything to change that. I swear, I give everything my all just to show that I'm not a failure. Sorry, but I can't help myself I'm just a huge failure. And No I'm not being modest. When it comes to my family, I'm just a HUGE DISSAPOINTMENT. No matter how hard I try I cant compete to become first. Just always second best. You get used to it after a while, but as time progresses you get tired of it. I just wanna know how it feels to be the best and NOT a huge dissapointment. But I guess we can't always have what we want.