I HATE HER.

I just wish that there could be one day that she wouldnt remind me of how much of a failure I am. Its annoying, I try my best to ignore it though. It just always gets to me .. then I break down .

I hope

I just hope that she breaks your heart! Exactly like how you broke mine ..

MOTHERRREFFERR !

#1.You such a freakinn' liar ! Why do i always let you into my heart when you end up breaking it! You promised that you wouldnt talk to other girls! i caant believe that I believed you ! You stupid as* mother f*ckerr. I just want to get you back so bad. Ill do anything to cause you the pain you did you me ! UGGGGGHH . OMG !

#2. Can you call on time? Your probably out there talking to some other beyotchhh . ughh !

How can you break me?

I trusted you too easily. Now I'm broken. That 4 minutes and 10 seconds just killed me. Inside I will always know that you love her. Why can't you see that you belong with me? I just so unsure now, should I love you or let you go? Someone please show me the way.

Fallin' for you.

Am I really moving on already? I feel like I'm betraying him though. He has no time for me so obviously I'm done with him. I don' t know , but this guy makes me happy. He actually makes time for me. He just makes me smile all the time. Who knew I would end up liking him<3

This or that?

I don't know who to pick now. I try to please everyone but its so hard. I can't help it. In the end I end up disappointing someone ! Why did he have to come back to me at a bad time :/

ASDFGHJKL;

I have the GREATEST feeling that this is ALL BULLSHIT. This act you trying to pull off isnt gon na fool me anymore. Try you best but I'm gonna stay strong. Talk to whoever you want but I really don't need you. But can you do me one little favor? Just clarify where we are. If you want me tell me, but if not just say the word and I'll leave this alone.

Who do I like ?

Well, thats a very difficult question to answer. How am I supposed to know that? I ca't really decide & No o ne is asking me to decide right now. Theres still time though. I don't want to think about this anymore though. Does it really matter? Ill do whatever till I get "those feelings" about someone.

I had fun today ..

I saw the freakinnn' hottie Gerald Anderson ! Now my life is complete(;
lmaaao. but yeah. he held my hand ! & I got his autograph . Now were gonna
try to get a picture with him tomorrow. Hopefully I get it this time. That would be cool(:

I just keep falling.

Every time I hear one of you lame excuses I fall for them. I know, but I cant help myself. Look what you did to me, you sucked me in this vortex that I can't get out of. I need to get outta here. I want to get over you now, since you already left me behind. I don't know if I'm jumping to conclusions of not but I might just forget about us ..

Am I supposed to feel bad ?

I need to stop falling. Or else I won't b e able to get up. I cant handle this anymore. I really need advice but I dont want to ask :/

Everything changes

You used to be the the one who everyone adored. But now we pushed you to the bottom. I'm sorry to say this but your not queen bee anymore , we rule this now. Nothings going to stop this. Were on top and we actually belong here.

Jealousy ..

I never knew I had a jealous side. Look what you did to me ! If you want me then you chase after me. But its pretty obvious that your not chasing me your chasing someone else. I thought i would be able to trust you though. You gave me your word and I trusted you. Maybe its just a friend thing between you two but you specifically promised that you wouldn't "talk" to any other girls. Stop making promises you cant keep.

I'm so sick of it .

I hate waiting around for you. I cant hear another excuse come out of your mouth. Can you stop now. If you don't want me anymore, just say the word and I'm gone for good. I thought I was the bad guy, but I was wrong, it's all you hun. I just can't deal with this anymore. I have the proof that you lied and I just can't handle it anymore. I think I'm done ..

Impatiently waiting for you.

I cant wait for you to come around anymore. I might just move on before you break me even more. Seeing you talk to other girls makes me sick. Maybe you caught me in my lies and your trying to give me taste of my own medicine, whatever it is I don't like it. Ill get over you easily. I don't need you like you need me. They said I could do better and now I'm agreeing with them.

Making memories.

You guys complained that I never take picture with you guys. Now all I do is take pictures. I wanna look back at those photos and smile. You r never take too many pictures(;

I just realized that

My swag is pretty ill. Who knew? Today, i just added this cute guy randomly. Then he started hitting on me ! I was like OHHBAABY(; This made me feel better actually. That made my day. Now I'm gonna go eat some FREE chicken at KFC.

I'm such a b*tch,

I only think about myself. The whole time I was bad mouthing him, while something bad was happening to him. I can't believe I did that. Next time I'm just not gonna rush things like this. Just lets things flow. I regret taking things too fast. I'll let this progress at its own pace.

The rain,

Its so depressing outside .. it pouring hard ! ):
But i dont care, I still wanna go linedancing !
Nothings gonna stop this(:

Just friends.

I honestly thought this would work out. My plan was perfect, till you changed your mind. I don t even understand why you didn't make your move before though. I guess I was just tripping over so many other guys that you just didn't bother? Well whatever the reason was, I didn't even notice you. I don't know how I didn't like you before either. I guess I just wasn't feeling it. I'll just get over you at my own pace, even if your done with me. But I don t know what to do, I don't want you to think that I am running back to you

Its not the same

I liked the way it used to be. Now when I'm around you I feel awkwardness. Everything's different now. I miss how everything used to be. I thought you wanted everything to go back to normal? Normal is the way I wanted it too .. but that's not whats happening. We barely talk anymore. I actually make the effort ! Its you, who's avoiding me ! What am I supposed to do now? Was it supposed to be this bad?

FilipinoShowdown !

was amazing, I met Filipino celebrities ! I'm definitely satisfied for today(:

He just makes me smile.

It been so long. I haven't smiled like this for a while. But when I'm with him it feels so right. I can finally say that I'm actually feeling better. I guess everything's gonna be okay(:

What to do ..

You say you don't need anyone but me. But I'm not quite sure if I want to settle down. I'm not that type of person. I guess that explains why I'm never in a relationship. Cause they always end up so terribly. I lose interest real quick ! I cant help myself, sorry.

The Little Things .

It just goes to show that the little things always matter. They ALWAYS effect the bigger things. No matter how little something is, it can transform itself into a dilemma or the greatest thing that could ever happen. Those little details could either destroy you or help you. But who ever knows ?

Who knew ?

I never knew that getting the taste of my own medicine would hurt so bad. How can this happen to me and so fast ? Wow, and I thought that I would get a second chance with this. But I guess I learned my lesson .. the hard way.

Second best .

Honestly, I've always felt like second best .. and always will be. I'm never good enough. Trust me, I've tried to change that. And I would do anything to change that. I swear, I give everything my all just to show that I'm not a failure. Sorry, but I can't help myself I'm just a huge failure. And No I'm not being modest. When it comes to my family, I'm just a HUGE DISSAPOINTMENT. No matter how hard I try I cant compete to become first. Just always second best. You get used to it after a while, but as time progresses you get tired of it. I just wanna know how it feels to be the best and NOT a huge dissapointment. But I guess we can't always have what we want.